When a woman stops crying
You best believe she has a new plan
She's preparing for something new
Something that doesn't include you
When a woman cease to cry
She's 'bout ready to say goodbye.
Friday, July 30, 2010
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
The moment i saw this card at a christian bookstore in Wisma Merdeka i just knew i have to have this. So i bought it and it is now serving me as bookmark in my Bible.
Trusting in God is one of the hardest thing to do as a Christian. Don't get me wrong, I believe in God, i know He created the universe and all human beings. I just sometimes don't understand the term "Trust God". Trust Him with what? I understand that when I pray and ask God to help me, I hope that He hears me and I hope that maybe He’ll see things my way…and maybe grant me what I ask Him. But I learned long ago…that He doesn’t always answer me, so I don’t expect too much from Him. Trust God? I’m trying. I’m really trying. It’s just very hard.
This is when our faith weakens, when we feel like nothing's happening. When our prayers go unanswered. But, something is happening. God wants to see if we will still trust Him even if our prayers don’t turn out the way we want. He is trying to help us grow in our faith, and in order to do that He continues to raise the bar a little bit at a time. As we grow spiritually, He asks us to believe in Him more, and when things become difficult…He wants us to believe even more.
This is what i learned throughout the years. And most prayers can only be answered when we do something in our situation rather than just waiting for something to magicly happen. Yes, God wants us to get off our lazy butts.
When prayers go unanswered, we often decide that God could not be trusted after all and thus, we give up, and have doubts once again. God wants us to keep on trusting Him. He may not have answered our prayer right away and He may never answer our prayers the way we want, but do we still believe and trust Him to do what is best? In the past, i would usually go on a rampage when things doesnt go my way. It is so easy to point fingers and play the blame game but we have to put our trust in Him for He knows what is best for us.
I'm posting this up because i know alot of people out there could relate to this. Now, before i go to sleep at night, sometimes i would think of the things that have occured in my life for example, past relationship that i once thought would be the "real deal" but in the end didn't work out for some reason. It makes me think "What is God's plan for my life?" I know God has something very special planned up for my life. I just have to trust in His time for all of that to happen. I am giving up my mind’s control over all situations, taking my hands off and let go of my fear & unbelief - STOP TRYING TO FIGURE THINGS OUT AND TRUST GOD TO WORK.
I used to tell God what i think i need for myself but now, i ask Him to do what is best for me and trust that whatever happens is what He wants for me this time.
I read this every night to feed my spirit and warm my heart (says the book)
My (still) empty piggy bank. I make sure i put the week's remaining coins inside. I'm starting to save up :)
Pictures! (of me, ofcourse)
I think i should take a picture of my room one day.
Friday, July 23, 2010
I can tell it's gonna be
Another night alone
And I don't have the energy
To go out on my own
When you go, I just want to hide
I'll keep goin' , Im locked up here inside
But I will never give up, I'll never give up,
I'll never believe that love just fades away.
I'll never give up, never give up
I'll never give up.
In the middle of the night
I wanna reach for you
I'm so uneasy when you go
i don't know what to do
It's so hard, just to go til then
I'm not happy til i'm home safe and sound
I'll never believe that love just fades away.
I'll never give up, I'll never, never give up
That love just fades awaay..
I'll never believe that love just fades away.
I'll never give up
Never believe that love just fades away.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
All of us there in the picture are workmates (except for Diviannah - a colleague's sister) we all went to Gayaratau for swimming and barbeque at the river. It was raining season that time so the river water was quite heavy and there were some parts that were so deep. We had fun jumping in and out of the river.
I was ready to go home when suddenly i received a text message from my dad saying my mom was admitted into the hospital because she got dengue. So i went to the hospital in those clothes. My mom was horrified to see me in those clothes haha. I dont usually go out to the city in short shorts that's why my mom had that reaction. I told her i was too concern about her than what i was wearing, which was true :)
Let me look more into my pictures folder.. who knows what can be found again in it? :)
Monday, July 19, 2010
Del & Bel
Esther OIAM was one of the entertainers that night.
Oh, i almost forgot to mention that I performed that night :) The performance was a little different than usual because we sang with the choir as the background singers. I dont have any pictures of my performance so, yeah.
Ok people, it's almost 4.30pm which means, time to go home!! :)
..but it wasnt on Thursday night. I watched it on Saturday night with my cousins. All 7 of us had to catch the midnight show at 12am because we went to church first for the evangelistic meeting.
Since it was still early, i decided to get an hour or so of sleep while the rest of them watched X-Men on TV but i dont think they were watching the movie, they were too noisy but i did manage to sleep through the noise hehe.
After the movie, my 16 year old cousin told us that he was feeling dizzy haha.. I loved the movie. I never paid that much attention to a movie (apart from Avatar) :) I like the fact that you need to concentrate on the movie in order for you to understand it. Movies that make you think.. i like! :)
On a different story, a friend of mine asked if i have New Moon movie. I said i'll have to check first on my external hard disk. I lended my external hard disk to a different friend last week, thought that her laptop would be 'clean'. When i was trying to open my hard disk, trojans were found.
I just hope they wont corrupt my files inside. This is the last time im going to lend my harddisk to anyone. If they want anything, they just have to give me their pendrive and i'll put in whatever they want inside their pendrive.
I think i'm too nice. wayyy to nice. It's time i put some limit to my niceness. I lend people my stuff, and what do they do? infect it with trojans. *sigh*
Thursday, July 15, 2010
After the last installment of Twilight, i didnt think the next one would be nice that is why when Eclipse came out the same week as Despicable Me, I opted to watch the latter. OMG..OMG..OMFG!!! I HEART ECLIPSE! Let's not talk about New Moon because for me, it was a disaster. pffffttt!!
I can't wait for the next installment of the Twilight Saga - BREAKING DAWN! I think i know why i fell in love with Eclipse and not with New Moon. It's because i read New Moon before the movie and i know every part by detail (just like in the book) but when the movie came out, it didnt reach my expectations. So this time around, i didnt even bother finishing the Eclipse book. I only read half of it because i didnt want to get dissapointed again. I've got all four books laying neatly on my bookshelf but i dont think i'll be reading them anytime soon. Ok, maybe just a peek of Breaking Dawn once in a while.. because i'm curious like that hehehehe.
While typing this entry, my brother texted me and asked whether i want to watch Inception tonight, the new Leo Dicaprio movie. I saw the trailer just now and it was super cool!! i want to watch it lahhh. But the thing is, the show for tonight is at 9pm and 12am. Hmm. I have to make a decision. There's this evangelistic meeting at church tonight (every night infact until the 24th) and i'm singing tonight for the special song segment. He texted me again and said we could watch Ong Bak 3 first at 9.50pm and then Inception at 12.00am. My reply: "sure, why not" ha! i dont really mean it :-P because i have class on froiday as early as 8am but i reeeeeeeeaaaaallllly want to watch Inception!! let's just pray i dont fall asleep during the movie.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Here are the details just in case anyone of you are interested in going:
Venue: SDA Menggatal Church
Time: 7.30pm - 9.00pm
Just so you guys know, I'll be singing for special song tommorow night :) (i haven't even decide on what song to sing, and i need to practice somemore.. yikes!)
See you guys there!
Friday, July 9, 2010
Anyway, since i'm now trying to lose some weight i am now so carefully selective on what i eat. So before we left home to the movies i ate a plate of papaya:
Wahh, so healthy!!!! i was so proud of myself. Then came the thinking, what if i get hungry in the cinema? i dont want to go out and buy a box of popcorn during the movie.. so i packed keropok inside a ziplock bag:
Diet rosak terus! hahaa... so much for dieting, huh?