The B-Side of My Mind

for my own wellbeing, i am going to close the chapter of my life which has been very dear to me. i should have done it long ago but i just cant. to be honest, if i dont do it now im afraid i'll get sick. the last thing that i want for myself is to be depressed. i can only do, feel and think so much alone on a two-way street. i love him, yes. but i wont allow myself to be treated this way. i feel pity for my ownself. i need to distance myself, find myself back and try to find happiness within myself again. this depression can't go on. i love you, goodbye.

Dialah pujaan dalam mimpi Yang senantiasa membuai hati Tiap kali bersua ku hanya mampu senyum padanya Terdiam... Sekian lama ku mencuba Tak kulafazkan perasaan Berkubur saja namun dia kucinta Apa yang harus aku lakukan Agar dia pun mengerti Adanya cinta menanti Oh sekian lama Aku mencintai dia Sukarnya membutir kata-kata Menilai apa yang aku rasa Tiap kali ku cuba Lidah kelu dari bersuara Ku berserah Those who know me knows i do not listen to malay song. Ive got nothing againts malay songs, just not my taste la..aiseh ada taste-taste suda la kunun hehe. Anyhoo, while i was chatting and surfing on a saturday nite i put my mp3 player on shuffled and i came upon this song: Siti Nurhaliza - Sekian Lama . I didnt even know i got this song hahahaha. You know what, this song is actually good. no, make that VERY GOOD! and its been on repeat mode for an hour already. The lyrics were penned very well.. It's like they wrote this song based on my love story. yes, i may be brave to sing and po...

The picture above is me and my little niece, elsa.. i took this picture in my room while she was here friday night. She'll be two years old this august but she still cant talk that properly, i said to my sister that her daughter talks like a caveman.. hahaha. Babies.. Im waiting for my apple crumble to bake in the oven. I was out of my mind bored so i flipped through mom's recipe book and found Peach Crumble. But since we were out of peaches at home, i decided to use apples instead. This is how it looks like just before i pop it into the oven The result? TADAAA.. My brother said the apples looked like potatoes hahahah. Maybe it because of the way i diced it. Will tell ya'll about how it taste like tomorrow Im feeling much better now than last night after making a crucial decision on my life. Its a shame i wasted so much time on this particular person and closed down opportunities that came passing my way. I'd go "Oh well" everytime he lets me down, just hoping...

Song: Even For A While Artist: Gary Valenciano Why do hearts feel the way they do Why does men wanna say I love you Till the end of time Till I lose my mind Till it’s over and left so far behind I just can’t keep it all inside So unbelievable how much I’ve tried Yet I call for you I long for you And I say the words I wish you’d want to here Though you’re never here Our hearts and though they beat as one But in time, the time for us will never come So I, I just go on And just remember those eyes That look right through my heart The smile that shows what’s in you That makes me wanna cry Coz I know I’ll never have you even for a while Now all is said and done it seems I keep remembering what I would call a dream Where you came true For a minute or two That was all the time it took To make me know you had to go I know ive said this in one of my old posts that im going to move on from this phase but i guess i never really did. So this time, im really going to make a change for once in my li...