The B-Side of My Mind

This morning when i wore my black pants to work, i was surprised because it was tight. OMG! i gain weight!!! okay, that was an exaggeration. I know i've put on some weight but i didnt think it would be this far. *sigh* I'm blaming it on the medicine!! Why medicine? well, 3 weeks ago when i just came back from the Philippines i fell sick. My tummy was hurting like hell to the extent it made me hard to walk. I even had to hold my tummy when i walk. It was hell. According to the doctors, i look pale and with no energy. Ofcourse, what do you expect from a sick person right? so the doctor gave me some medicine that will increase my appetite. I'm so sad. I cant even fit my clothes properly now. You see, i'm the type of girl who gains weigh fast. Sad eh? i wish i could be like those who could eat and eat and eat but doesnt gain anything. Guess i need to exercise more to get rid of this unwanted baggage. I am determined i can get rid of it :) All the best to me!!

Remember the boy who claimed that Catholic church is the true church? and all other Christian denominations are false churches of God? well, today i went to his facebook page and look what i found: ..OMG! how can he say that? about God! *scroll down* . . I think he's just doing this to get the attention of God. Maybe you're wondering why he's all upset and all. Well, it's because his nephew (i think) has converted his faith from Catholic to SIB (Sidang Injil Borneo). He says that God doesnt answer prayers, God doesnt listen therefore God does not exist. God does answer prayers.. even in his case. He just isn't listening. Or maybe he's tuned in to another channel? i dont know but God really does answer prayers. A "NO" is also an answer. When you dont get the answer that you want, you say that God doesnt answer prayers.. you just have to keep an open mind on things like these. God has a plan for everyone. When you dont get the answer that you want fr...

Yesterday evening i was called by The Hunter's manager and he asked me whether i would like to join the 3rd heat of the karaoke competition. He said he really thought i would make the cut during the 1st heat and it would be a shame if i wasnt in it. But what can i do? it's not my choice.. it's the judges choice. After our little talk, i had this urge to try again but i was unsure about my decision so i asked a couple of my friends about what i should do. Most of them told me to go for it! and i was so pumped up with my decision of joining the 3rd heat. But it was short lived until i told my brother about it. He said "what if the judges are still the same people? How sure are you that they'll pick you this time" Hm. THAT made me think. What if the judges didnt like me since the time i walked on the stage? what made me think this way was because there was one or two people who sang horrible (in my opinion) but made it through. It would be a waste of time to b...

I was going to write about something when suddenly someone chat-ed with me on facebook, asking "Pammie, why are you still on facebook? from morning until now? you got no work kah?" I felt like slapping her with a trout, ala IRC style. No, make it A BIG FAT one! i was annoyed by her comment, she is accusing me of not working because im online on facebook. She's online too, so what the hell is she doing? I wasnt curi tulang, i just happen to know how to manage my time very well and i am a really good multitasker ;) That comment made me close the facebook tab on IE. She was still typing something but i didnt care enough to wait. hmmph! In the mornings, when i get to my office i usually check my mails and facebook - the happenings and whatnots of it. But when it comes to work, i do my work okay? but sometimes i just forget to close the facebook tab. What? is it a crime to not closing the tab? Oh and sometimes i forget to turn off the facebook chat button. But it doesnt mea...

I am a whiner. big time.. and right now, i feel like whining on how fat i feel. I was whining about the same thing im whining now on monday and my mom and sister was telling me that im not that fat. My frame is big. No matter how skinny i get, i still will be big because im a B i g G i r L. Of course they wont tell you you're fat because they're family..and they see you like, all the time. I suppose im not really fat but i just feel like it. I remember when i was actually bigger than myself now and lost a whole bunch of weight. How on earth did i do that???? Maybe i was motivated. Or maybe it's easier to lose weight when you're bigger? I dont know. I just need motivation. I am positive i can untightened my clothes back (before june) hahahaha.. L e t 's p u t t h e "P" b a c k i n Positivity.