The B-Side of My Mind

On the way back from my cousin's engagement party just now, the question "why cant that happen to me" keeps on asking in my head. I come to realize that im always the girl who "could've-been-the-one" in a relationship. Im always the 2nd choice and never the 1st - it makes me feel like im never good enough and sometimes i believe i am not good enough for anyone or even myself. Dont get me wrong, i wish all the guys who picked the other girl instead of me all the happiness in the world since some of them have gotten married with kids now. We all still remain good friends and when i see them i cant help to think that that couldve been me. It's easy for people to say "dont worry your time will come.. just be patient" I mean it's easy to say for them because it isnt them who is going through the heartaches over and over again. It's sickening, plus it has lowered my self-esteem over time and it caused me to be depressed. The hardest thing t...

Im in pain. In the past 3 days, i was out in the cold, was in the rain, got bitten, hit a tree, fell down a hill, got bruised, got cut, lack of sleep.. but yet, i had fun! I'll talk about what ive just said in the coming entries.. first thing first, i need my wounds to heal. Cut on my left palm Bruise on right arm (i hit a tree when i slipped down the slippery hill) These are just 2 of the many visible wounds i have imprinted on my body. ♥ P.