The B-Side of My Mind

I am trying to lose some weight hopefully before the ultra marathon next month (1 month to be exact today!!!) because i feel like my body is too heavy for my height. I am 5"2 by the way. I also received some comments about  my body from a few people.. who asked "you work out but why do i see you not getting any smaller? you're getting bigger" I know the word "bigger" is just a polite way to say i'm fat! It is SO embarrassing to receive such comments.  So, instead of being mopey i did some thinking and i realized i eat out everyday! especially during lunch. I think that is the cause of my weight gain despite working out almost everyday. I have made a decision to limit my intake of eating out to 2 times a week only. It would be great if i don't eat out at restaurants at all! but that would be impossible :)  Today is the first day of my mission. I brought breakfast AND lunch to work today. Breakfast usually consist of muesli and today's lu...

The office where i work at came up with a challenge : The Biggest Loser challenge and i am one of them people who joined. I was so shocked when i was weighed in on tuesday. I am 63kg!! oh my cow! just two months ago i was 56kg. *sigh* I have this as a daily reminder to motivate myself to not give into the temptation of junk food and to exercise. 4 times a week at least. I have been exercising every evening for 2 hours since sunday. However, last night was my night off. My body needs rest. This morning, before going to work i exercise for 45 minutes. It feel so good to sweat. I am so determined to win the challenge and most importantly get myself back into shape. I can hardly fit my clothes properly now. *sigh* For lunch, i had papaya and drank a bottle of soy and whey protein isolate drink blend. My brother is buying dinner for the whole family tonight so i decided to eat a little lighter than usual today. I must however remind myself to not eat rice tonight hehe. Or it will ruin the...

Two weeks or so i was measured and scaled by two colleagues of mine from the Physiotheraphy department. I weighed 60kg. Urgh. On thursday (13 May) i was measured and scaled once again and guess what? I weigh 56.5kg! And i lost 1.5 inches. Wooohooo! I don't know if the marathon thingy had anything to do with my recent weigh loss but i'd like to think it had :) I had been training 3 weeks straight prior to the marathon. Even now, after the marathon is over i still run in the evenings after work. Last week me and my running buddies ran from Tanjung Lipat all the way to Likas stadium. Non-stop. It was tiring but i felt so healthy after getting all that sweat out. I haven't been running much for this week though because i had exam to invigilate at night. But i did run yesterday (friday). It has always been a dream of mine to own a treadmill but a friend of mine said the other day, "why would you want to spend your money on a treadmill when you can run for free out there?...

Ok, so i did made a promise to the world that i will lose weight no matter what, and you know what? i forgot to update you guys on that and my progress.. What im gonna post aint pretty but i hope this will inspire others in their journey of losing those stubborn unwanted excess baggage . . . . . Jun (herbalife nutrition advisor) and me in April.. i was still round like a fishball Me in April.. still boroi . . . . . Me (and Nelly) in June.. after losing 6Kgs :) You look good when you feel good.. Thanks Herbalife :D (with the support team at Foh Sang) Yea, so the truth is out! i drink Herbalife to assist me in losing weight. I still workout on a regular basis because i love to workout and apart from that given reason, i also love food hehe.. ♥ P.

..Why? because i just keep on taking food in. I do exercise, but whats the good in exercise if i dont change my eating habits, right? If i keep up with this, in a month or two i will have to get me a new wardrobe. I have bought me more than enough clothes that could last for two or three years and im beginning to see the damage ive done to my body. I mean, i dont wish to be stick thin or anything. I love my curves. I just dont want anything unnecessary hanging out and showing (i.e. the bra over hang).. i just want to fit my clothes better :-) I have been wanting to get me a new pair of jeans and you know what? i'd like to try on a pair of skinny jeans coz i never had one nor tried one before. Yea, im a skinny jeans virgin. But i got big calves and that's what been holding me back on trying. But who knows right? maybe i'll rock the look.. but If i dont, i can always run back to my M593s. right? Okay, so the plan is.. Im going to promise myself to eat better healthy food, exe...

Yesterday, me and two of my colleagues, nancy and evelyn went to Marie France Body Line at Centre Point because we got this gift voucher from the Miss Almacrest Beauty Pageant that was held recently. We went there to make appointments but instead we got a good 'lecturing' on how bad our exterior body is. I was told that i was on the borderline to Obesity and i was like, "huhhhh??" i mean, i know im not the skinniest person alive.. and i dont plan to be stick-thin skinny any time soon. The thing is, im a big girl. My built is big.. ive got big bones. Oh, and they told me to lose 10kg. Im like, "whatttt??" i AM trying to lose some weight but not to THAT extreme la.. 10kg is like, ALOT! After the consultation, i really was not in the mood to eat. We went there around noon. We thought it would be like 10-20 mins but it took an hour of our lunch time.. and i was invigilating an examination at 2pm with Evelyn ! We told them again and again that we were only ...

Today is Kimberly's (my niece) birthday. She turns 3 today.. wow, i cant believe how fast time flies and now she's three. I can still remember the day that she was born, it feels like yesterday.. the memory is still fresh in my mind. I went out today.. gift hunting hehe. After spending about 15 minutes or so at the toy shop, i ended up buying a painting kit set for her since she really like to paint. She also got a bicycle from her dad and she loves it so much, she even had her dinner on her bicycle hehe. Eeee I ate so much just now i dont think i want to see food for a week! ;-P Even mentioning about food makes me nauseous.

It's tuesday. One week from today will be my research proposal presentation. yikes! i havent done my slides yet. i only finished reading 5 pages of my proposal hehe. The original plan was to start yesterday.. last night to be precise but i was waaaayyy too tired to even sit on the chair. See, last night i worked out for 2 hours! It was tiring since i never worked out that long, but at the same time its nice to sweat it all out. I feel so malas today..although i know ive got work to do. *siigghh* Anyhoo, i was browsing in my picture collections when i came across this.. hahahaha!! Sepa lagi juling?! This was taken at my aunt's place at Indah Permai when after a seminar at church, she asked us to come by her place for some snacks. I kinda miss hanging out with my cousins..we rarely see each other these days. Only in the weekends, on saturday at church. Aight, i guess thats it for now. Have a nice day y'all!

Today i woke up with no electricity... eeeee. I hate it when this kind of thing happens. especially early in the morning. Ok, maybe it wasnt early in the morning, coz the time was showing 9am when i woke up ;-P I reached for my celly and texted my friend, who was working at SESB (Sabah Electricity Sendirian Berhad) to ask how long the electricity be down. After a minute or so, he texted me back saying it will be down for not more than 3 hours. Pheww, thank God it wasnt going to be until 5pm. So I dragged myself out of bed, brush my teeth and wash my face. I went to the kitchen to see whats for breakfast but I wasn't feeling hungry yet, so i decided to take a stroll at the backyard.. It was so sunny! i like.. See.. the sky is blueeee Mom's orchid is finally blooming The backyard A pineapple! in my backyard! but it's not ripe yet..will check on it in a few days. Hopefully Mr. Squirrel wont go and make any territory marks on it by then. Im kind of glad that there wasnt any...

I recently have started going to sauna. I like the one at City Mall, Zazen Health Solution. What makes the sauna at Zazen different from other saunas is that it uses far infrared (FIR) thermal system. Infrared ray is a form of light energy emitted from the Sun that is essential for the well being of all things. As FIR rays penetrate the skin layers, light enerfy transforms into heat energy and causes the blood vessels to dilate which promotes better blood circulation as the heat rids the body of toxins through sweating. Consequently the body naturally metabolises and heals itself which leads to improved overall vitality. Apparently, there's a whole lot of benefits that FIR can offer: 1. Fitness - improves cardiovascular system & tones muscles 2. Improve Skin Texture - Cleanses skin & induces a healthy glow 3. Detoxification - Purges toxic waste products through the skin & aversion of future cancers 4. Anti-aging - increases mental clarity & restores energy levels ...

I just finish my morning workout. I did Gilad 's Total Body Sculpture. Man, i must say after not working out for about 2 weeks my body kinda ached doing the crunches with dumbells and the backrolls, especially. For the holidays, this time around i've promised myself that i wont pig out on every makan-makan . Being somebody who has battled her weight since childhood (yea, i was a fat child) it is kinda hard to not pig out, but i'm going to take it as a challenge. Hey, if Oprah can do it by just working out, then i can do it. It's just mind over matter. Anyhoo, last night i cleaned up good my room and its so cleeeaaaaann now.. im so proud of myself! I started my cleaning at around 12.30a.m and finish about an hour later. While doing my cleaning i was also chatting on YM! hahaha.. Davelynne was amazed on how i could be wiping my floor and chatting at the same time. I simply said: MULTITASKING haha. Maybe thats why i didnt felt like it was a chore..i was actually enjoyi...