The B-Side of My Mind

You know how i always go on and on and on about me loving the Philippines? but it doesn't mean that i love Philippines more than i love my own country.. it's not that i don't appreciate the sacrifices of the people who led us to independence. I am proud to be a Malaysian. Although i don't mention it often (but who does?) . I have been sick with the flu and thus i have sore throat. It's been going on for three weeks already. I couldn't stand the headache i had yesterday at work, i went home during lunch time i slept for a good 4 hours after downing 2 paracetamols. Luckily today is a public holiday! or else i probably would take another day off from work. Since today's a public holiday, i brought home some work to do - marking midterm/ test papers that are piling up at my table in the office. Most of my colleagues would just put them under the table so that it won't mess up the table. I would do that, but i'm just scared that i'll forget all about ...

This is what i brought for lunch today: 1. Papaya 2. Boiled cauliflower cooked with chicken fillet (minimal amount of oil used) And this is what i ate: 1. The two items above 2. A slice of pizza (personal pan size) 3. 1 Pizza Hut hot wing Upset. Me and my friends had lunch at Pizza Hut (Likas branch) but some of us (including me!) brought our own lunches there. I am so upset. Another diet gone bad. But it's ok lah. I won't allow myself to snack around like a mouse this evening. Oh, and because i'm going to be at the office until late, say 8.30pm i even brought my dinner with me to work - a sandwich. I used whole meal bread that i bought at Consfood (their new outlet in Likas near Taman Yakim Jaya) with lettuce and hotdog. The ones without cheese. I hate those. Oh, and just awhile ago a colleague of mine was going out she asked whether i want a yo-yo and i said No :D I am upset yet happy & proud of myself. Does it make any sense? :-/ Anyways, another 2 weeks or so till...

Last night after working out for 2 hours, i went to read some of the newspapers that was piling up at the reading table. I was reading through New Sabah Times when i came across the Entertainment section and it was all about Usher's recent concert in KL. The news spread on Usher's concert at Bukit Jalil Stadium. Can you see anything wrong? Ok, maybe it's too far.. How about now? Still No? . . . . . . . . . . . . Now can you see it?? LMAO!! Hahahaha.. Slow shits??? Don't they proof read their article before publishing it??

The office where i work at came up with a challenge : The Biggest Loser challenge and i am one of them people who joined. I was so shocked when i was weighed in on tuesday. I am 63kg!! oh my cow! just two months ago i was 56kg. *sigh* I have this as a daily reminder to motivate myself to not give into the temptation of junk food and to exercise. 4 times a week at least. I have been exercising every evening for 2 hours since sunday. However, last night was my night off. My body needs rest. This morning, before going to work i exercise for 45 minutes. It feel so good to sweat. I am so determined to win the challenge and most importantly get myself back into shape. I can hardly fit my clothes properly now. *sigh* For lunch, i had papaya and drank a bottle of soy and whey protein isolate drink blend. My brother is buying dinner for the whole family tonight so i decided to eat a little lighter than usual today. I must however remind myself to not eat rice tonight hehe. Or it will ruin the...

This song literally speaks my last break up - yea, i havent mention anything about being in a relationship, and now it's over i don't even want to talk about it. I have said, done and thought (not all but) almost everything in this song. Love this song!

I love the above picture with my nieces. Come October, another booger will add into the clan. This time, it's a boy! My 1st nephew. I'm going to be an aunt again! On another note, do you see the girl in the blue shirt, wearing shorts and tennis shoes in the picture below? That's ME . hm. I didn't thought i look that awful! urgh. My body is aching right now because i have been working out for 2 hours every night since sunday til yesterday. Now, i'm thinking "can i endure another Body Combat tonight?" Yes!! Anything to lose this excess!! Last sunday we had a Family Day organized by our church. Here are two pictures that i copied from my cousin's Facebook page :D i like these the most (even though i look humongous here.) We had an "unplanned photoshoot" haha. I'm still waiting for the pictures from my sister's camera :) Will upload them when i finally get my hands on them pictures.

Three weeks ago, during the ShareHim program that we had at church the speaker asked if i would like to sing with him and i jumped at the offer just because i love to sing (yea, like that's a big secret LOL) and it is always nice to collaborate with someone in singing. We planned to sing More Than Wonderful (as shown in my older posts) and a few days later he came with the idea of us singing in Portuguese. And I said Yes. Surprisingly to me it only took me less than 3 hours to learn both the pronounciation and the melody of the song. The end product is the video show above. The title of the song, Não Há Razão means "There Is No Reason" in english. I can't elaborate on the meaning of the song because honestly, i didn't know what i was singing but what i know was, the song had something to do with God since it is a religious song :) But according to Pedro, the song means something like there is no reason for God to love me because i am a sinner but He does .. som...

The pink shirt above is mine. Yes! I burnt my good pink shirt this morning. I wasn't even in a hurry. Something is bugging me, obviously. I accidentally set the iron on full heat. Honestly, this is not the first time i burned something on the hot iron. Usually when this happens, something is bugging me. But i don't want to talk about it in this post. I wish i had one of those steam thingy they use in departmental stores or in boutiques to smoothen out the crumps. *sigh* there goes another good shirt. I love this! This is Hello Panda biscuit. I knew about this a long time ago but only recently i have become a BIG fan of it. It really is delicious. Hello Panda never fails to make me happy. I LOVE HELLO PANDA! (gimme a box of Hello Panda, and you'll make me happy :D) p/s - It's 7pm and i'm still at work. My class started at 11am today so i'm clocking out late today. What better way to pass the time than blogging right?

I had Charice's album for a few days already and out of 14 tracks this song i like the best :-) I just love Charice's tagalog rap in the end. Although i have no filipino blood running through my veins, i am always mistaken as a one when in Manila. This makes me proud to be mistaken as a filipina! :D I purposely picked this video so that you guys can read through the lyrics. Enjoy.

Last night, while me and my sister were having conversations about the fundraising dinner i attended on sunday night my mom came and joined us. All the talk then led to something she remembered and she told me about some things that were kind of disturbing for me, because it was of me. She heard some people talk trash about me. I just don't understand the fascination "people" have on me until they have to say things like that. What hurts me the most was when my mom said this to me: "As your mother, when they say things like that about you i am in a way affected. I feel sad, i am also hurt" I just felt like crying right there! The last thing i want to do is to make my parents sad. All my life, i have tried to live my life as good as possible. I know i am not perfect, i make mistakes but who doesn't right? Mom was with me for an hour or so. All we did was talk. I really believe that everything happens for a reason. During the Share Him program that we had 2...