The B-Side of My Mind

Prologue 1.Where did you take your default pic? -> at mingku's room 2.What exactly are you wearing right now? -> pink shorts and a red & white striped top 3.What is your current problem? -> can i not talk about it? 4.What makes you most happy? -> bonding with family and close friends 5.What's the name of the song that you are listening to right now? -> brighter by paramore 6.Has anyone you've been really close with passed away? -> yes. 7.Do you ever watch MTV? -> rarely these days Chapter 1: 1.Middle initial: -> P.J 2.Nickname(s): -> Pam, Del, Delo haha 3.Current place: -> my room 4.Eye color: -> dark brown Chapter 2: 1.Do you live with your parents? -> yes 2.Do you get along with your parent(s)? -> yea 3.Are your parents married/separated/divorced? -> married 4.Do you have any Siblings?: -> older sister and bro Chapter 3: Favorite... 1. Ice Cream: -> vedablu's belgian choc 2. Season -> rainy if i want to sleep in ...

2007 is ending and what a ride it was. It has been a great year for me, although there were some 'bumps' along the way.. so here's the good, the bad and my resolutions for 2k8. The Good 1. Finally finished aaaaalllll my subjects for my masters degree. so, meaning no more exams for me...yayyyy. 2. My car finally got a new coat of color and a new set of seats 3. Travelled to Macau, Guangzhou & Philippines 4. Went sky jumping in Macau 5. Met the band 'Tribe of Levi' in manila. Ive been adoring their song kaligahayan natin for a few years and zaq (the lead singer extraodinare) gave me their cd wooohooo.. 6. Finally had the courage to cut my hair after 2 years 7. Formed a new singing group at church..we're still nameless though but we received good reviews from people who has heard us sing :-D The Bad 1. Battled mild depression (i know this might be a shocker to some people because on the exterior i am all smiles, but yea.. i was depressed and the worst thing...

I guess you guys have noticed that crime & investigation channel on astro (channel 732) has been blocked for our viewing pleasure for some time now. I am such a big fan of that channel i was so sakit hati when it needed some payment to continue watching it. So today i went to astro at centre point and changed our astro packages..with blessing from my dad, that is heheh. i ended removing two packages: the fun and sports..since nobody really watches the channels under the two packages at home and subscribed to metro package that has the crime & investigation channel together with discovery home & health and discovery realtime (my bro's fav). Dad is more intrested in watching Hope Channel on the other tv these days, I was so excited to see the crime & investigation channel back again on astro. i checked the channel almost every hour even though the lady at the counter said 'check at 8pm' when i asked how long does it take for it to be activated. At approximat...

Ok, i know i am a liiiitttle bit late. it is officially 26th of December now.. but hey, better late than never right? anyways.. wont be sayin much for this entry.. here are pictures of a family gathering (mom's side) that was been held at my house. More pictures can be found at my multiply page. Just click here. *yawwwnnnerrss* im falling asleep as i type this.. i better get me some eyeshuts.. Nite ya'll and Merry Christmas once again :-)

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night? -> last night? hmm.. cant remember la as i laugh a lot 2. What were you doing at 0800? -> was doing some graphic work 3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? -> was in the shower 4. What happened to you in 2006? -> completed my bachelors degree 5. What was the last thing you said out loud? -> 'OK' 6. How many beverages did you have today? -> 3:yogurt drink, water & grape juice 7. What color is your hairbrush? -> light brown 8. What was the last thing you paid for? -> reload for my cellphone 9. Where were you last night? -> was at home 10. What color is your front door? -> light green 11. Where do you keep your change? -> in a canister.i then use it for my offerings on saturdays at church 12. What’s the weather like today? -> it wasnt that hot. it rained heavily in the evening..and its still raining 13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor? -> vedablue's belgian chocolate. yummy. 14. What...

See me jump through hoops for you You stand there watching me performing What exactly do you do Have you ever thought it's you that's boring Who the hell are you I am extraordinary If you'd ever get to know me I am extraordinary I am just your ordinary Average every day sane psycho Supergoddess

..especially him :( text me quickly, will ya? XOXO, Pammie

Last sunday, i attended 2 weddings in 1 day. Met LOADS of people and they mostly asked me "bah, ko bila kawin?" (So, when are you getting married?) or "Sepa boyfriend ko? ada suda ka?" (who's your boyfriend? do u have one yet?). Hmmn, dont they have like anything else to ask like 'how r u'? i just stood there & giggle like a little school girl. When i didnt give them any answer, they proceeded to asked my mom. Oh please people! stop with it already. Am i like some kind of freak for being single? Luckily a pastor came and save the day by saying "jangan susah, when the time is right, the right man will come along" Amen to that! What a coincidence, while typing this entry this song by Jinky Vidal called Somebody came up on my ipod: I want somebody to share Share the rest of my life Share my innermost thoughts Know my intimate details Someone who'll stand by my side And give me support And in return He'll get my support He will listen...

I am done with xmas shopping (for my own self, that is hehe) What i bought? well, let the pictures do the talking: I only planned on buying the purple dress but since the denim jacket & yellow whaddaya-call-it was on sale, so i grabbed it. I dont think i'll be buying any new shoes coz i still have my purple shoes i bought at China last summer, that i rarely wear and it still looks like new. I still have a list of stuff to buy before christmas. Hopefully i can finish it up latest by next week. Christmas family gathering for mom's side is going to be held here, at my house. I was against the plan of having it be held here coz i like going back to Goshen, Kota Marudu (my kampung) it brings back all kiddie memories, and i guess thats why christmas is more felt there. But since my grandfather was the one who wanted it to be held here, i guess its set. I just hope many relatives of mine from Goshen will be able to come here during christmas. Tuesday night i went to the SASS Alu...

This is one of Gary Valenciano's God-glorifying hits from his album 'Soulfull' . Personally, I am so touched by the lyrics of this song. It reminds all of us to be ready, because we don't know when God will take us our lives. No words are left now to be spoken When all my promises are broken And all excuses I have used in justifying My own actions moved me so much closer to the fire But now I know, seems I've lost my soul Make me and take me Can you find me in this world I've chosen And never let me go Hold me and mold me And if there's no other way to make me whole Then go ahead and break me, Then remake me Holding on, I wont give up 'Coz I know You wont give up on me Grown weary of my ways pretending Showing I'm okay when I'm hurting But now I know, time to find my soul Make me and take me Can you find me in this world I'm lost in And never let me go Hold me and mold me And if there's no other way to make me whole I've been too prou...

I SO love this indon band. I officially became a fan of theirs ever since their song, 'terdiam' came out in 2005. To date, i have both their studio albums - 1st special edition , and Free your mind. The band was formed in 2002 consisting of 8 people - Angga Widi (producer, composer, arranger & song writer), Indra (executive producer & manager), Indah & dimi (vocalist), Satrio (guitar) Iva (piano & keyboard), Jawa (bass) & Amar (trumpet). To know more about the band just click here. This is the band's official website.

I know ive mentioned that im going to post like, everyday and i failed at it! well.. atleast ive tried hehe. I just came back from carolling. After years of carolling, i thought i wouldnt be carolling this year. But Dad called me up this evening and asked me whether i would like to join the office's (Sabah Credit Corporation) carolling. Since i dont have anything good to do tonight, i said why not?! So, on the way to the office (the meeting point) about 1 km from our house the car broke down. Dad told me to stay in the car while he walk back home to get our other car. I was a bit scared as it was rumored that 50-100 steps in front is a t-junction where they say have ghosts. There werent any street lights, and there were forests at the left and right side of the road. I played some music on my phone but switch it off after no more than 2 minutes coz i heard footsteps but i looked around there werent anybody there. i lowered myself down and stay quietly still until my dad came. That ...

After dinner, i was startled when my mom suddenly, out of no where asked me about this one guy who ive had a crush on before. He knows ive been crushing on him but i dunno, its like every word i say to him keeps falling to the ground. For every question asked, i mostly answered "dunno" coz i was just too malas to answer things related to him. sakit hati, eh! Lets change the subject, shall we? Yesterday ive been having some computer problems. I installed the Bitdefender total security antivirus on my pc but i didnt like it. I find it 'unfriendly' so i decided to uninstall it..but it wasnt following my command as usual. then i discovered that i also couldnt open my internet explorer and my ym, couldnt double click an icon, and it jammed the pc. I never experienced this kind of problem before..*wondering* dunno whether it was a virus or technical malfunction of the computer. So i came to a decision to format my computer (C:). I spent like, an hour or so just calling, an...

If one said that life is a breeze , then they must be lying. On the exterior, people view me as a happy and cheerful kind of person. I am! But that doesnt mean that my life is easy..God only knows how much ive been through, how many battles ive won and lost in this thing we can life . The truth is im tired of going through battles, fighting and complaining. So today, when i learned that a "friend" of mine had betrayed my trust, i was furious. Apparently she told people about something that i clearly told her not to tell. "So J, i hope you read this.. i can't believe you betrayed my trust! i thought you were a friend but you're just a big fake! don't act all surprise if i dont talk to you, or see eye-to-eye with you coz i cant stand you." Urgh..Nothing hurts more than betrayal. I wish i could just delete her out of my universe. But i cant..unfortunately. From this day onwards, your existence doesnt concern me anymore. i hate to do this, but im hurt and ...

I was at sixtysix last night with all the Liew clan (my family). we had dinner and talked about general stuffs about life.. just updating ourselves with each other. After dinner we hang out near the monument. I wanted to take a picture of myself with the monument behind me, but what my aunt said really made me change my mind about taking my pic there. She said "ko tia takut ka nanti ko tingu gambar ko, ada yang duduk sebelah ko?" (aren't you scared when later you look back at your pic, "someone" is sitting next to you?) right after that, all of our ghost stories came pouring out. It was kinda scary..at one point i told them to stop coz it was giving me goosebumps..and being a scaredy cat that i am, that's not good hahahah. It's going to be december soon, and i havent done any christmas shopping! I havent even completed my shopping list! need to get that done very soon. I hate doing last minute shopping, plus the traffic jams will be so bad i hate to be s...

Jordin Sparks! Yes. this year's American Idol. After listening to her self-titled album which dropped last tuesday (20th Nov) NOW i really feel she deserved the title. Honestly, i wasnt that much of a fan of hers on Idol but after listening to her album, i became an instant fan. Her vocal abilities have improved so much, she sounds so much better now than her days on I dol .. and almost all 13 tracks on the album are good..there are ballads and also some up-tempo songs which are quite catchy, i must say. The team of songwriters (Jordin is one of them..she has written a few songs, Freez e is one of them), sound engineers, and producers have really done a great job on the album! Even Rolling Stones rated her album 3 1/2 out of 5 stars. I would give it 4 1/2 out of 5 stars..that's how good it is. :-)

I just finish my morning workout. I did Gilad 's Total Body Sculpture. Man, i must say after not working out for about 2 weeks my body kinda ached doing the crunches with dumbells and the backrolls, especially. For the holidays, this time around i've promised myself that i wont pig out on every makan-makan . Being somebody who has battled her weight since childhood (yea, i was a fat child) it is kinda hard to not pig out, but i'm going to take it as a challenge. Hey, if Oprah can do it by just working out, then i can do it. It's just mind over matter. Anyhoo, last night i cleaned up good my room and its so cleeeaaaaann now.. im so proud of myself! I started my cleaning at around 12.30a.m and finish about an hour later. While doing my cleaning i was also chatting on YM! hahaha.. Davelynne was amazed on how i could be wiping my floor and chatting at the same time. I simply said: MULTITASKING haha. Maybe thats why i didnt felt like it was a chore..i was actually enjoyi...

Jinky Vidal of Freestyle doing a cover of 'Half of You' by Brownstone. I havent heard the original version by Brownstone but i dont think i have to listen to it..hehe. This version by Jinky is enough. I have had this song for quite some time already but never bothered to listen to it. Only today i fell in love with the song. The song is quite sad if you listen to the lyrics but still a lovely song. Oh, if you're wondering who's Freestyle , well you can find out by clicking here. This is Freestyle's official website. now and then i wonder where you are and where you've been? we were friends but deep inside my heart i always knew i only needed one not two i wish that i could say the same for you everyday i kept you oh so dear and close to my heart i was yours, i thought that you were mine right from the start we made a vow to be as one but you played your games put our love to shame and now the magic's gone i never wanted half of you sharing you will just no...

Ok, so last night was my first paper but i dont want to go into it. hehe.. tunggu result saja laa! ive got another paper (my last) on the 21st. Anyhoo.. Ive been listening to Craig David's new fourth studio album, called ' Trust Me '. The tracks on the album is as follow: - 1. "Hot Stuff (Let's Dance)" - 3:39 2. "6 of 1 Thing" - 3:47 3. "Friday Night" - 3:33 4. "Awkward (featuring Rita Ora)" - 3:37 5. "Just a Reminder" - 3:49 6. "Officially Yours" - 3:55 7. "Kinda Girl for Me" - 3:47 8. "She's on Fire" - 5:04 9. "Don't Play with our Love" - 3:59 10. "Top of The Hill" - 3:54 11. "This is the Girl" (with Kano) - 4:10 Among all tracks, i particularly like Just A Reminder , Officially Yours , and Kinda Girl For Me . In my opinion, i think this album is his best work to date. I'd give it a 9 out of a scale of 10..1 being the lowest and 10 being the highe...

I wont be posting that much for this month because i am having my school exams and i have to read my books. They have collected more than enough dust on the shelf hehe. To my fellow coursemates, if you happen to cross my page, Go and read your books already! hahaha.. Good luck guys!!! See ya'll at the end of the month :-)

I recently discovered that i am allergic to chocolates. CHOCOLATES! of all things!! everytime i eat them, my scalp will itch so bad, sometimes holding myself back from scratching it will be impossibly hard for me. So, i am abstaining myself from chocolates. Looking at the allergy in a different angle, i think it will bring me some good.. i mean, i am trying to shed some pounds so by not eating any of it i think it'll bring wonders to my body hehehe. A cousin of mine, who is coming home from Australia this Dec with her family just asked me in her email whether i still eat chocolates. Maybe she wants to buy me chocolates? My sister told me to just say yes and she'll eat it for me haha.. Last night was two of my cousin's birthday. I told them and a bunch of my other cousins about my recent allergy and she said she almost bought chocolate cake instead of the carrot cake for her birthday. The other cake was cheese cake.. I was sugar high!! I just loooooovvvveee birthday cakes....

This is SO true... i meant, us.. heheheh *drooooooools* Credits to PostSecret.com